Saturday, August 28, 2010

Moaning, boasting, hating, ... or mixed feelings

Thanks Sean, SharonEmy, Kee Hui and Ming Fong and others for cheering me up. I really couldn't overcome the problem without them... of course impossible without Him... you know la... "Friend" is so much important to me. I grown up so big, never experience the loneliness in like, having lunch, hanging out, sok geh, playing whatever la la la ...! Most of my friends should aware that I online every day...! Playing "Facebook" games every time! Spamming whatever I posted! Thinking that I'm so lapang  ...and surely felt that I am so annoying seeing so much stuff posted by me in your feed... but I have to! Because, there is nothing else I could do, to kill my time over here! Really sigh*~

There's so much thing happening this week... related about personal problems lo, academic problems lo, relationship problems lo, and also... spiritual problems. I hope after what I complained, expressed in here might calm me down lor....

Last Monday
There's a class test worth kinda, a lot to me ... I tried to study for it, but you know I'm not pro in studying la, and feel no motivation to study, and that time headache for the weekends again... really hopeless for that test ... however I managed to study for the test la, but not finish type one... hehe~ I tried my best to answer as much questions as I could =)

Tuesday
I read newspaper and saw news about Hong Kong tourists being killed by a Phillipine security force. I can't , or even dare to imagine what they felt during the moments between Life and Death. They're so innocent...! Why do bad guy exist? Why? I felt so sorry for the victims and their family. 
Not only that, I also saw news that the flood death toll in Pakistan reach 1300...! Hundred of thousands, even million people evacuate their home...! Now? Look at the news! Its so saddening that all the people are starving for hunger, homeless and some of the could possibly waiting to...
*A moment of silence...*

Thursday
I'm so dead, I still couldn't contact one of my group member as there's a project report which suppose to due on Tuesday! It worth 25% of the course! I'm so worried... I just submit my written report(not complete) to my lecturer. Hope I could at least get 10% out of it ...! Losing such a big marks really a pain in the ass...!

Friday
A interesting day I could say... I went to school to watch a video named "Earth: The Power of the Planet" ... This video is really, really inspiring me... whole the video is talking about the.... Earth, obviously lol ! No la... its talking about the history of the Earth, how mountain formed, how everything is created, how powerful is the Mother Nature when it takes place! I enjoyed the video very much and was thrilled, even though not yet complete for watching it due to just 2 hour for the class. Our lecturer said he will continue on the next, next week ~ *Yeepie~
Then, some of my classmate and I headed to a computer lab to finish our assignment together, suddenly......
an alarm went off... we thought its just the malfunction of the unit, but when we got in the lab, another alarm went off... seems like one by one la...! We were awared by staffs to gather at school compound...

"Guys, we need to evacuate the building, there's smoke coming from the building", said the staff.

Talking to my friend, "What? Is he serious? We're like on the 11th floor here!".
At first we ignore his warning, but later our coordinator came in,
"Guys, I know its annoying, but we have to follow the procedure, please evacuate now"

Then bo bian lo... walking all way down to ground floor...! Quite chu kik xia~

In compound, the place all the crowd gathers during emergency evacuation

But what do you think it going to happen next?
A. Ambulance & Police coming~~~ *bibo bibo*
B. One of a building BOOM
C. Nothing happen
D. Someone scream, "LOOOK! ... the bird just slammed into the window"

Haha, the answer is obvious yeh? Not even until 5min we got here... then one or few staffs coming over and tell us "You can go in now"
We'r like, "What?!"

Stupid enough ...! Then, my happy, inspiring day turns into moody day once I got home and opened up my Facebook.... I saw some of my friends tagged in a photo, and saw 2 page about the incident in KL... All Malaysian should know the issue hor? Two page about "it" lah ... One sokong and one tidak sokong of course...! Merdeka just few days ahead, still this issue becoming more and more sensitive and 'hot' ~ like 火上加油 ~ I felt sorry for that Admins whom created these pages !!! ONLY MAKES CONDITION MORE WORSE NIA !!! 
NOOB HAI~ even some of my friends in my list also quite sentimental about that... like, the bonding between our races... haiz lo~* Make me moody suddenly... 


But another thing saddened me lah ...! Coz dunno why some of my friends like to swear "F" word loooo... like ... can I mention it out? Haha~~ Because everytime I see that word, I felt very 敏感 and 反感 ... saw and heard 到 super 厌烦 already...! Do you believe that I never use the "F" word until now? Only 心想, but I never type it out...! 

I'm good boy =), I'm so proud of my parents haha~ taught me well mannered and I would stick to that, not to 辜负 them or ruin their image on me ~!

But really lah... don't swear too much, especially "F" one OKAY ?? Do a favour for me~ don't make me lose good image on you X(... You know lah, I don't want to get peer pressure...!

Haha, best friend, as always~ so close, like a family ... which mean will be following whatever you did...! So, don't swear(too much) ~

Despite of all of these, I could just pray everyday lor~ what else can I do? "I'm nobody... nobody but you...!"  
Eh ngok meh !

Monday, August 23, 2010

Dislike my tiertiary life...

Sometimes, I really do wish I'm currently still in Malaysia, ... anywhere, anytime, right now... I really, ...do not like here at all. Its been a year, since I came here to have my further study. But, I really doubt is this the one I am hoping for...? I'm sort of tired and I really do not have any motivation to study anymore at all... sometimes. Because, ... not sure la ~ seeing Danny's MSN post saying "Appreciate the every moment you have" ... but I honestly didn't appreciate at all... seems everything at here are meaningless, no point of studying alone at here, I mean alone, ... and did hoping studying again with my old friends... anyway, thanks Danny here for cheering me up at the Chatty Box there >.> ~~~

I seemed I've been discriminated ... or it could be that I couldn't socialize or couldn't accept new friends anymore, or I'm still keeping my heart shut tight ? I'm really, really lonely here~ totally no motivation to study at all... Take today test for an example... this test worth 20% of my course and I totally didn't study well at all during last weekend...! One word, LAZY ! As I mentioned before, staying in this country for too long really make you sloppy ...! Due to their 'relaxing' cultural ba ? I wasn't me anymore, when I'm still in Sarikei/SAS ! My brain, felt its growing smaller and smaller lol ~

I did weep in the corner in order to release my tension and stress, and for everytime I think back my memories in Sarikei, same too looking at our loving "Family" photos~ especially during last CNY! No doubt it was my best CNY ever ! I really looking forward next year CNY ! But I'm not sure if it gonna be a better one or not =\  

Sigh*~ Almost everybody seems going home for Raya eh? Next week right? Envy arh... ! I also have my holidays next week ! But just one week only... but actually its 5+2+2 = 9 days lor ~ I also want go back >,< ! But this year I already put a lot of burden on my Father liao... So, staying here doing nothing and medidating ba? Hahaha~~ but still haiiiizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzing  la  ~~~~~~ !

I really want to talk to somebody now!!! Hoping for video call through MSN or Skype la !!! CALL ME !!! I need to hear you guys voices so that I could pretend that I'm HOMED !

... and to LEO ~~~~~~ Happy 19th Birthday to you !! Muacks ahahaha~~ how you gonna pay back my money for sms-ing one msg to you ! Expensive ler ... wait you chia lou~ hahaha!

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

累计一年在国外的经验

在这个国家,待久了真的会变笨,变得很懒散... 脑筋也变得一点都不灵活去,功课好难追上... 人口也那么多,觉得好窄! 空气一点也不新鲜,吸烟者又超多,每天当二手烟 really shit... 要去个地方也要这样远,车多... 塞车... 好麻烦... 24hours 哪里够?

不良少年也多多,有美女也没用... 好多都是吸烟的... ! 小孩也不例外... 口德really 'OMG' type one... 电视节目也好无聊,暴力,粗话多多... 这就是所谓的 "Open-minded"吧...
这边的天气每次也怪怪的... ! 一点都不Balance !

打算想在电影院看戏,结果没去,因为贵... 去了也是一个人孤零零的享受... 想买点心来吃也要想很久... 结果也没买... 省钱的日子真难受... 都不可能看到一餐1-5 数字的价钱 !

大学生活过的一点都不觉得开心...
这种生活... 4年,真的好难熬... 希望时间也快快过,快快毕业,打工打工~ 然后离开这地方...!

我想念我平静,美丽的家乡, ...想念我尊敬的家人,亲爱的亲戚,朋友们,... very MUCH!
愿主能带领我度过这些障碍。




And too ... Happy Ramadan to my beloved friends in Malaysia !