越来，我是这么的敏感的人。 被讲几句就水汪汪，可能是太觉得郁闷+冤枉吧。 我真的很讨厌凶巴巴的人，尤其是女人。 女孩子当然要温柔一点嘛！ 真的好羡慕我爸呀～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～

认真

说到认真，我看对游戏的addiction蛮严重d。（以我方面来说可能是句废话）

看看你那样子，八成是“pakiu” 或者生气了。对不起咯～
虽然是游戏，可是一下手去玩... 当然是会产生要赢的喜悦嘛。【Running Man 某某人说的，2012】

想当年我教人家玩PS游戏，看到beh tahan 太noob就抢到遥控器自己来玩。

啊，不说以前的事啦。不要kepo*

还是看看mood吧，但是某某人说 “ 太认真的话，你就输了”（2013）。
... 可是有时候我对游戏满认真的～ 要是我对功课也这样就好了 （——__—— )

Procrastination till max~ 1+ week holiday still haven't manage to finish anything !!!!

*STRESSSSSSSSSSSSS*

最近

不想跟人聊天，

讨厌人群，

不想跟人接触，

朋友的事都不想管，

觉得你很虚假，

对某某人很冷淡，

总觉得很累，

渐渐的喜欢一个人在角落独自享受自己的世界里。

什么是"Good Friday"？我只知道是Public Holiday罢了。
我也傻傻的一整天躲在房间里看看戏，玩玩电脑了。

Earth Hour？ 什么跟什么？？世界的事与我无关。管太多事只是把自己身体搞累坏了。
Assignments 啊，projects 啊... motivation 你在哪里唷？

下个星期是Mid-Sem break, 躲在家里就好了。外面的世界太乱了～ Air pollution, noise pollution, crowd pollution, space pollution, money pollution (贵）~ 

#homesick #antisocial #tired #needagetaway #hatebigcity #problem?

你的虚假真的，好厉害呀。

偶尔放放一下你的尊严可以吗？死都不要说么？？

阿不，没办法咯～ 这个冷战可能要一阵子了～ 不严肃的话我看你不会反省得。

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... 澳洲有什么好，热死人... 本人超级讨厌热。。。 这种的热度根本能把一个人活生生的人给烤了！

好讨厌这边的教师呀～ 每天叮咛我们看看Email，结果我send两份Email给两位教师都没有人回... *Ignore*

害我迟到两小时去practical，在热热的大太阳下没水喝，然后又没吃到中饭...
三点多买了两个Chatime来填填肚子。




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才第一个星期，本人变得很#antisocial #anticrowd #antipollution #antihot #antiinternet and etc.

啊，纳闷！

谢谢这几个月来RM给我的欢笑～ 打走我的<恶魔> !

太阳啊太阳，为什么你这么的热情？可以对我冷淡一点点吗？很热呀！！！！*STRESSSSSS*

大学的第一天............................................. 没什么特别的事情。跟几位朋友说说话罢了～

还不是一个人走来走去，
还不是一个人孤零零在太阳下等巴士，
还不是一个人坐着电车里，
还不是一个人坐着吃，
blablabla~

只是Major Project听起来好烦呀。。。
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Zomok 每次当某某人很要好时... 就某某的那天，就这样莫名其妙的彼此变得酱陌生？讲话变得长话短说，都没讲一大堆的垃圾话，亲切感feeling也没了。

然后就这样，你不找我我也不找你。再然后，就这样？到底是什么意思？？

唉，好多某某人变得这样。我觉得好寂寞呀~ *no need advice me its time to find gf gf or bf bf lah* 
所以我常说有电脑陪我就好了。

心情很down时都不懂要不要找那个好多某某人聊。

唉哟，人生呀！我还不够成熟呀～ 我也不想变呀~~~~~~~~我的想法依然是五岁！ *pakiuuu*


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这几天的Facebook啊，看到看到显。知道啦，不要再SHARE啦！

*scroll scroll, 幼稚* 
*scroll scroll, 讲话很厉害哟？* 
*scroll scroll, 你以为你是谁？*
*scroll scroll, 唉～ 烦烦烦* 

对这些 posts 看到很反感。然后呀，Freedom speech 屁啦～ 个人意见也被炸！你以为他是总统咩？个人的想法罢了！还搞什么Page "DEMAND SORRY SORRY" !

那些只会comment comment 的，只会说说啊？敢敢去做啦！

https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=Tkm5K2fu0AI

然后最讨厌的事那些人share的美女照片呀，尤其是有乳沟的呀，写什么做人的道德意义？
*beh tahan*

××  有点anti internet 掉~~ ×× 
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Jackie Chan 在最新的 RM 看起来好年轻呀...！哈哈～ Kwangsoo 还是酱可怜！*dang dang dang, dang dang dang~~*

...总之爆笑！

*ngai wor a bit addicted 嘻～* 

新年蛇年，念念念 2013

(对不起咯，这个blog被忽略很久了～本人真的很懒。心血来潮就写一些咯～然后很闲空咯，太闷了）

新年快乐！.....我知道已经过了，但给给面子moh~ 2013 的第一个文章～ 嘻嘻！

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呀～这新年，感觉特别的累... 因为，每次当 Driver 咯。每次出去呀，那边问这边问，啊要不然没有车，那就很懒惰驾。没办法咯，还不是我亲自出马？****STRESS**** [Kang, 2013]。有次我真的已经很累了，驾了一整天。到家没几小时又要去拜年~ message pop pop pop 的问我，"When go?", "Get bla bla bla?", "No go out meh?"。当然可以呀，可是当我问可以载我后，banyak alasan lah 就来啦。有时候呀，我真的很想被人载呀。

而且说真的，新年要去我家拜年当然是要自己来啦。还问“ U fetch me go??"，这类似的话。也不用说什么，“I no car oh, haha.”。哇老哦，想当年我们骑 Motorbike leh ? 有心来就想办法来，不要就不要来。说成我... 你啊，诚意何在？

（Sorry la, 我的 blog 本来就是拿来 complain 的）

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关于照片呀，你可以不要一直催我问我，"pic leh?? haven't upload??", "fast fast upload ya ^^"。哇老呀............. sibeh dulan. 还不是我跟你们去拜年，又当司机。哪来的时间upload ???????? 回家时也都累垮了。Patient plssssss

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然后啊，有个人真的不懂他是怎样的人。比某某人还奇怪。说话没有point 的，又有点antisocial，然后又很花心似的？哎呀，我真的计量 avoid 他了。但没办法，看看朋友们的份上罢了... 我 create group chat 不懂谁乱乱add 他进来，说话都难呀。

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开玩笑归开玩笑，但不要得意忘形。请为别人想一想，讲得太多人家会对你反感地～

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然后呀，每次找人好像只是我一个人 planning 的。叫我找叫我找... 结果本人每次都被 ignore。感觉好白目。你们的一声 "NO"我也会很高兴！ 没关系，反正都不是第一次了～ 习惯习惯就好。That's why siak da 我只叫几位罢了，别人自己找啊～ 太多每次 disconnect 的。Transport  又是个问题... 总之，自己打算吧～ 

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换个话题吧～ 今年拍得好多。Edit 的好累～ 该该换个 Lens 了～ Ah Tong 的新相机很不错下～有点想买新的！

～～～～～财呀财，要控制哟！～～～～～ 

就这样，photo editing in progress~ ! 先告一段落呗！

我们新年2014 再见～ 

跟去年比一比照片里面缺少好多人... 有点寒酸～ 希望明年会有"你们“在里面啊！说真的 :) 

**本人如果今年有谋反或我的话得罪伤了你们请多多包涵，咱们一年也见才几次罢了。人会有自私的时候～ ehhhh, 不要酱 >_< **

辛苦您了

我是不可能跟媽媽肉麻得說，“媽, Happy Mother Day, I Love You” 之類的話。

所以我用寫的來表達～ 

“媽，我真的很愛你”

有 "Gelik" 到嗎？有木有？？有木有？？？

... 

好想些寫下去，但寫不了醬多... 每次想起你的事，從小到大... 

我的眼睛又要開始水汪汪了。

對不起如果我沒說出 “我愛你” 這句話... 但是我會用我的所能來孝順您來表達我的愛。

“....媽，辛苦您了。”

2012

*Cough cough!

Sorry just cleaned up all the heavy dust in the blog after abandoned it for few months! Haha~ like I said before this blog mostly for complaining stuff or other sort of unpleasant thoughts. Since I'm on holiday so  no more nagging or bla bla bla~

But this time, gonna say about my foot loo ! I had my very first surgery... (well just a small one) under my foot last Thursday. It is called corn foot. Imma lazy to explain what is it and how it developed so just google it -.- !

I had my foot problem since July so, pretty much it grew loh~ I encouraged myself to operate my foot because of the annoying tiny pain every time I step on the floor or put tiny pressure on it. Besides, it grew another 'baby' besides it which annoy + annoy = super annoying !! 

By the way, the operation is quite successful and not much pain... well of course the narcotic was applied before the surgery. I had butterfly in my stomach at that time! However, I felt nothing at that time... the doctor put much effort pulling the thing out! ... and it was...

I was like, "..."

After the narcotic effect went off, the pain was terrible! The doctor gave me some painkillers but doesn't help much... it did relieved the pain, not much =S 

And therefore, I became 宅男 since that day.

According to doctor, I need at least 1 month out to recover fully ! It would get better after 1-2weeks... Aduh, CNY is around the corner d la =( ~ I haven't shop for my CNY clothing !! 

What a 2012 startoff !

To someone, ..."You are annoying!!"... 

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Its been a while since I talked to you. It feels bad that I'm the one always starts the conversation but you killed it without saying anything or lengthy word. I thought we could have a good chitchat... 

Well should we start with, "Hi Stranger" next time? =)
By the way, personally I thought lot of people have changed... I miss old time of us fooling around and sampat-ing...

Hate the fact we've grown up... 

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6 more days... I smile wide every time I thought about meeting you again. Hey hey, not particular person la... =)

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Felt so bad about the two exams I had done...its been a week but I still think about them every time I lied down on my bed every night... quite a high possibility to f... Anyway, He will decide the outcome =) 

This semester is totally a mess... and the worst so far... and as usual!... getting lazier! 

Argh..... I'm still lack of self discipline.... jing mo yuong ar..... I really, really hope to turn myself over a new skin leaf .... 

Watching at the calender that the exam is just 2 days ahead, with so much thing to be covered...

the photo up there seems not much la... still got many shits sheet of papers behind me wor!

Arghhhhhh!!! Must remember there is always rainbow after the BIG stormy rain (,_,) 

真的好想跟你讲话，但又很怕你嫌我烦

Therefore I shut myself pretty tight alone in the room. Hope this kind of life is only temporarily and I could still overcome it for 30 days exact. 

...Can't wait to go home. 

崩潰

就是這樣... 殺 救我吧！

被遺忘的感覺... 真的很不好受...

看到好友有了自己的好友，真的像失戀了一樣... 但覺得比失戀的戀人還要難過 

(雖然我活到現在還是Available地 ～ ♥ )

很多人只是在生命中擦身而過罷了... 所以我不想交太多朋友。以後誰誰誰先“走”一步，然後什麼什麼什麼的... 你曉我曉啦... 如果這個那個“outing” 那邊這邊說三說四的... 這個那個“生日的”, 口袋空空又不好意思... 麻煩... 

時間久了，真的對彼此覺的陌生... 找人聊天越來越少，有時候只看到你上線但不懂要這麼樣break the ice...有時候只跟 Facebook 二人世界罷了... 這就是所謂的“還活著”的意思？還是"寂寞”？我寂寞寂寞就好～～～ （好个屁...）

就這樣，內向的人就是這樣的嗎~？ 內向男 ？！宅男？！處男？！

（如果看 "MO NO" 本人廢話多多罷了）

說真的，我個人覺得自己真的慢慢被遺忘... 自從來到 Australia... 

我寧願放棄一切，回到過去，彌補之間的友誼。

只有你陪我再過著這個月就好了... Stitch ♥

October ♥

Like the new month, but also hate it at the same time -.- ... means my holiday is no longer far ahead from me and  my exam is coming soon! ... and REAL SOON !! I didn't prepare well yet! There's a subject I totally blur2... as usual skipped attended most of the lectures and fall asleep concentrated well in the class! 

...

...

...

thinking of it really make me (T,T) lo~~~~~ 

By the way, I went to a camp - survey camp for 4 days 3 nights. It is 2 hour drive from the city and the area is really isolated... (well, camping area you know lar) that the reception is so poor that you can only make call or sms on high hill.

The high hill? really high you know!! 

Comparing the two photo.... really "HIGH" you know!!! very steeeeep! Steep daoooooooooo.......

Ok, enough of exaggerating... 

...but really STEEEP LAR !!! 

I climbed that two hills up and down like, 10+ times... no kidding, 10+ !!!!! MADNESS!!!!! It just my first day of camp and real darn tired !! My back and legs are sore everyday! Ah, did I mentioned about the weather? EVERYDAY RAIN RAIN RAIN ! The mud! The slippery! The terrain! Really omgosh... and the cold wind chilling wind heavy gust wind! 

Holding a walkie talkie for communication under a soaky weather... 

Nevertheless... the camp is over and I survived... This time I am not exaggerating it... the tough terrain could take my life anytime! Speaking power of nature... There were so many times that I slipped but luckily managed to hold on something before I non-stop rolling to down the hill... it was my very first experience surveying in the thick bush/forest/jungle/hill *whatever ! 

And also, I like the sceneries so much... driving along wide open...

Buffalos or cows or moo moos 

Vineyard 

I'm not the driver~ so snap3 ♥

Other scenic~

Lazy to put other photos at here... go FB check it out ba! 

I really love country side so much, so calm and peace... no people mountain people sea... no traffics... fresh air... totally letting go the stress... however when I reached in the city, the hectic life comes back ... sigh* 

Can't wait to leave here and my holidays to come (><,) I really miss someoneS so much. 

(PS: All the photos took from my hp... kinda bulky and not a good time to take my SLR since I'm actually not having a holiday trip... but some photos come out really nice.... Hidung tinggi-ing! XP~~ )

No Wills

The title says it all... No wills... no wills at all... I just want to die that's all... I'm sick of all living through these lonely life...

I don't have friends... I felt so lonely... I want to go back my old life so much... my cheerful, social life... Not on this one man island! I don't like here. I don't like getting new friends.

I hate being here... I hate being myself.... I hate my study life... I hate my attitude... I hate what I'm thinking...

I rather go back to study with friends... with old friends...
I'm very depressed. I do not have friends to talk with... everybody has their own life to deal with... I do not have a lot of friends. No one could help me at here as well.
Any words doesn't mean too much for me right now. Praying doesn't help me much either... I'm so fragile...
Honestly I don't read Bible..., and I don't go church at here. I'm do not have spiritualness to overcome these problems...
I just want to rest... my soul is so weak.
I'm such a sore loser on everything.

Pathetic immature thoughts.

妈... 我好想抱着您哭... 我一个人在这里一个人过得真的真的很没意思... 

我不是我... 我也常常会想歪去... 我怕我这次熬不过去...

...

...

...

好想离开这。

Wasting Time

Y oh????? 明明有时间做 assignments! 但是咧！！！！

一回家啊，不是懒惰，就是 Facebook 到睡觉时间去... 

(虽然 Fb 这几天像死人网那样，超安静的说...）

大家都忙着 College and Uni life le ba?

我也不例外... 只是很懒惰做罢了！也不会做！

这么办！！

不懂不懂不懂～ 啦啦啦啦

 那些考试的，加油！

那些放假刚好去读书的，加加油！
那些放超久的假去读的，加加加油！

也为我的assignments，加加加加油！
（会不会太 “油” 啦？希望不会 “寒” 到你！)

我的心情，就像那只小鸟鸟...

可爱？愤怒？郁闷？无聊？寂寞？Emo？

...

...

...

...

...

...想家...

Seriously damn emo ... 0% outing/social life... been at home and didn't step outside door for a week already since my mid sem break starts.

I really want go siak da,
I really want go qia dui pao,
I really want skype with people,
I really want see familiar faces,
I really want to hear familiar voices,
I missed everything.

Why do I have to suffer through this? I'm not kind of that a man on an island! This lonely feeling is really ripping my heart off. I'm am not what I am at here. I'm like nobody! Don't tell me that I'm lucky that I could study overseas... it was not PLEASURE and I DO NOT want to at all !

I didn't ask for much... I just need a friend that I could talk to or perhaps study together... =(
I really want to go back study... I don't like the culture at all! Especially like there must be a FOUL language in every sentences! Exchange rate also high you know? I don't want to use those hard earned penny by Someone's to enjoy myself ! Uni fee had cost a leg and an arm already!
SIGH*

Damn the university life! "ENJOY" my ass!

Everyday

Everyday, I'm just thinking about the past...

Wah, sipek ke ai oooo~~~ hahaha! ppl do change!

Everyday I'm thinking about the food...

And of course also the home made one...

Everyday I want to hang out...

Everything I'm looking for a calm and peaceful surrounding...

Everyday I'm trying to find someone to chat with...

And everyday I'm looking at the sky, hoping that I could...

2/8/2011

3/8/2011

5/8/2011

22/8/2011

22/8/2011

to fly again soon enough ~~~~~