Thursday, April 14, 2011

As the time pass, I felt Facebook is giving me more and more depression... I don't know. Just felt somehow like that - uneasy, unpleasant, many fakers, naive, spams, lots of narcissists, philosophers (as if), ignore...[Rachel, 2011]

I feel the 'old' time is better, far ... far better than the present. 

Internet, you stole my time.
Internet, you stole my life.
Internet, you create a lot of toooot*
Internet, you bla bla bla...

Disagree? Well, think cook cook then... 

By the way, you did actually thought a lot when you are alone. 

Ok, I might be depressed right now. (Well, I'm)

Another thing... my grammar is greatly degraded. Just like 股票~跌倒哭哭哭(谷谷谷)~
If you ask me to write an essay, I could barely elaborate it. 

Out of topic! Hmm, what's my topic? 
No point! Dunno ar... 

I think I'm sot ... really lack of sleep these days. I don't know... just don't wanna sleep. Lazy go to school, head for lecture classes too! Just like this week... didn't went for Monday, and Thursday lecture class already. Its so hard to get out from the warm bed! And consequently, I couldn't catch up my study. Well... even though I went for the class, also tia bo ...then zzZzzzzZ.... I know you guys also did it too issit??~ hahah!

Talk a lot, but what what? Random post nia... talk song... comment song song... express my thought song song song... 

You, I hate your attitude.
You, I hate your narcissistic.
You, I hate your 'duck' face. (Dunno what's that? GOOGLE it )
You, I hate your ...
You, I hate your ...

Ya,... I talk song only... I complain song only... so what? 

I dunno why I wrote all these... I'm just write down everything flashing in my head spontaneously.

Nevertheless... its Friday! I really, need 加油 and start self study by now...I'm falling far, far behind on everyone else. Sometimes, 封闭self not a bad thing too... I want become "a frog under a shell". 

At least I don't know the world at outside, your condition, your life or everything. The world is dirty enough... Sorry for saying these, it is so easy to 胡思乱想 ... The hypothesis is accepted.

Bye.

Monday, April 11, 2011

无奈

没错,就是觉得无奈!

我无奈!突然想家,什么都想,也很想看到熟悉的东西和面孔!

我无奈!等你的电话等了一整夜!结果没打来... 觉得有点难过,失望... 我已想了好多话题跟你聊...
(PS: 不要乱想~ 老实跟你说,不是女生~ 是男生!更加不要乱想!只是想跟很久没听到他的声音罢了!也有事情找他!)


我无奈!我不懂为何觉得我好孤独!一点... 我说,连一点点的娱乐和朋友气氛也没有!没人陪我聊,没人陪我一起去逛街,没人陪我吃午饭,没人有陪我三八,总是一个人。就是觉得总是一个人在沙漠里一直走,一直走。

我无奈!为何进不了你们的世界?我的世界好闷... 我觉得在浪费我的青春!一点刺激,值得回忆的东西都没有!我好想进入你们的世界,进入你们的故事!已三年了... 我还是创造不了什么

我无奈!几乎都错过没有拍下来您的伟大发明!每次回家的路上,那天空的景色... 美到... 都不能用话来形容!咳... 相机又不能随身带... 加上 schooling time... 哪可能带去啦... 除非去Holiday啦... 这拍那拍...

无奈... 真的,以后见面的机会,几乎是少的可怜...

好像去去的海边吹吹风,或宁静的森林里面走走,或去哪里哪里散散心... 好多垃圾在我的脑海里堆着... 很想排斥掉 ! 顺便拍拍照,留留纪念... 开心就好。

 我在某某地方看到很有意思的话,然后去 internet googled 了一下,

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfareb and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. 12Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. 13You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart. 14I will be found by you, declares the LORD, and I will restore your fortunes and gather you from all the nations and all the places where I have driven you, declares the LORD, and I will bring you back to the place from which I sent you into exile."   [Jeremiah 29:11]

After I read them, I feel soothed... but just for temporarily... I'm lack of determination and inspiration as well as faith... =(

我就是酱...《无奈》