Desperate

I just had gone through my first aka tough week in Melbourne and I still not getting used my 'new' life. Everything is just so difficult for me... to adapt - transportation, people, school stuffs(which I forgot what I've learnt), surroundings, cultural, and other sorts of thing you could think of. 

Melbourne is just soooooooooooo "People mountain people sea"... Melbourne is just sooooooooooo big... Melbourne is just sooooooooooooooooooo "$$$$"... Honestly, I'm an introvert. Which mean I seem like dislike getting new friends, OR maybe I just have a poor social skills OR I just not 'ngam' with Ang Mohs? I felt so lonely over here... No outings, no face to face chitchat, no long lasting conversations with friends over here as there's no topic to chat about/mix with... (if you asking me to find a partner, then save your time lecturing me bah). 

I also hate big cities as they're always filled with awful air and I always became a second passive smoker. I never get a fresh air to breathe in such places. I hate being in a place with big crowd because I would always overheard a foul language coming from 7 out of 10 people, especially the word "F"... and honestly I also hate my old friends saying that... (you know who and who lah). 

About living cost? Everybody knows one lah... "Why foods/goods always rise, rise, rise but salary no rise one??" On Saturday, my transportation fee would rise by a few percent...! I still need to stay here for at least 5 years leh BOSS ! I was trying to save my money since I came here for study! No snacks, no supper! What the heck? My tummy growls everyday now matter how much I ate! (maybe not that much in case of saving $)

My academic pula... very huang no... played too long I guess~ Feels to lazy to get through them and therefore my assignments, HUANG NO aarrrrrHuaaatarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~~~

One word to say about my current life over here...

"SIEN"

(not Rachel Yap Si En...)

(Ok if feel cold please ignore it.)

I am praying (sometimes) that I could, hopefully maybe there's a transfer study to my country one day, pray for wisdom, pray for patience, pray for financials, pray for my health(not fully recovered after 2weeks), pray for faith and for everything that I'm encountering with right now. I just feel so depressed... Like weekends, I'm so lonely and bored. I wish I could socialise... like picking up my phone then play SMS,

Scenario 1
A: Want go yam cha??
B: Ok oh, when? Go where?
A: Fetch you first then say lah
B: = = ok
A: Reach at your house liao
B: swttttt

Scenario 2
A: Tomorrow do what lor? Boring leh...
B: Dunno oh...
A: Go Sibu play eh? Got movie watch?
B: Errr, me cincei aa.... neh that "XYZ" movie ah, ppl say it nice wor...
A: Hmm, ok then~ u go find ppl bah~ i find "C,D" you find "E,F"
B: ok ok~~~~ haha!

... during back times! But ... in big cities, go to a place take you an hour or half an hour to travel... How tiring? SO unlike Sarikei everywhere just 5 minutes within driving.
(PS: I didn't play SMS on my handphone for DAYS already ...pathetic!)

Ok, I'm quite tiring of complaining... for now~ Eheh~ by the way, my tummy growls when I wrote these... Hope can have a bowl of Wantan or Kampua right now... what a sad case...! Sigh~