No Wills

The title says it all... No wills... no wills at all... I just want to die that's all... I'm sick of all living through these lonely life...

I don't have friends... I felt so lonely... I want to go back my old life so much... my cheerful, social life... Not on this one man island! I don't like here. I don't like getting new friends.

I hate being here... I hate being myself.... I hate my study life... I hate my attitude... I hate what I'm thinking...

I rather go back to study with friends... with old friends...
I'm very depressed. I do not have friends to talk with... everybody has their own life to deal with... I do not have a lot of friends. No one could help me at here as well.
Any words doesn't mean too much for me right now. Praying doesn't help me much either... I'm so fragile...
Honestly I don't read Bible..., and I don't go church at here. I'm do not have spiritualness to overcome these problems...
I just want to rest... my soul is so weak.
I'm such a sore loser on everything.

Pathetic immature thoughts.

妈... 我好想抱着您哭... 我一个人在这里一个人过得真的真的很没意思... 

我不是我... 我也常常会想歪去... 我怕我这次熬不过去...

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好想离开这。

Wasting Time

Y oh????? 明明有时间做 assignments! 但是咧！！！！

一回家啊，不是懒惰，就是 Facebook 到睡觉时间去... 

(虽然 Fb 这几天像死人网那样，超安静的说...）

大家都忙着 College and Uni life le ba?

我也不例外... 只是很懒惰做罢了！也不会做！

这么办！！

不懂不懂不懂～ 啦啦啦啦

 那些考试的，加油！

那些放假刚好去读书的，加加油！
那些放超久的假去读的，加加加油！

也为我的assignments，加加加加油！
（会不会太 “油” 啦？希望不会 “寒” 到你！)

我的心情，就像那只小鸟鸟...

可爱？愤怒？郁闷？无聊？寂寞？Emo？

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Seriously damn emo ... 0% outing/social life... been at home and didn't step outside door for a week already since my mid sem break starts.

I really want go siak da,
I really want go qia dui pao,
I really want skype with people,
I really want see familiar faces,
I really want to hear familiar voices,
I missed everything.

Why do I have to suffer through this? I'm not kind of that a man on an island! This lonely feeling is really ripping my heart off. I'm am not what I am at here. I'm like nobody! Don't tell me that I'm lucky that I could study overseas... it was not PLEASURE and I DO NOT want to at all !

I didn't ask for much... I just need a friend that I could talk to or perhaps study together... =(
I really want to go back study... I don't like the culture at all! Especially like there must be a FOUL language in every sentences! Exchange rate also high you know? I don't want to use those hard earned penny by Someone's to enjoy myself ! Uni fee had cost a leg and an arm already!
SIGH*

Damn the university life! "ENJOY" my ass!